Wandering Minds

gahh...

i hate to make my dad cry.
i don't know where it comes from. he just starts crying, about something between us.
i never know what to do, it just makes me cry back.
so then we're sitting there, both crying, and i'm trying to comfort him, and i feel helpless.
my dad is one of the most amazing people i know.
he's also one of the most stubborn, one of the most juvenile, but he still remains at the top of the amazing people i know.
he's definitely the most amazing man i know, that is for sure.
i don't know how he does it, he makes me feel so lazy, the way he works so hard.
and it's all for us, his kids, his offspring.

today he cried again, as a result of me.
he told me we are so close, don't i remember all the things we used to do together, how he would take care of me.
'linnae, i cleaned your diapers, man! don't you remember?'
'yes dad, i remember, i'm sorry, i didn't mean to hurt your feelings, i'm really sorry...'
'i was not going to talk to you, linnae, i was not going to talk to you.'
'i'm sorry dad, really, i'm so sorry.'

it sucks that sometimes you have to call a person just so that you can get the verbal abuse you deserve.